It can feel like you are trapped, incapable of perceiving that type 1 diabetes is an imperfect journey.
Perfectionism precipitates judgmental thoughts. When we are unable to perceive of our reality clearly we can perpetuate the very negative thoughts and patterns of behavior that are causing the problem. Yoga teaches you how to link with that part of you that is abiding consciousness or the inner knower. This is the part of you who watches when you loose your shit and reminds you that it will be ok. In yogic philosophy this knower is called buddhi. This is our discriminative power to know what is real from what is unreal.
It is hard when blood sugars are imperfect to not identify with the symptoms of lethargy, emotional sensitivity and feeling on edge, but with practice, you can create spaciousness around your emotions and sensations where you can observe yourself without reactivity. This is important for all people but especially my type 1 friends. It is so easy to pull the diabetes card or to blame your disease for your problems. Constant refinement of the observer will help you ease your mind, mitigate dramatic highs and lows, and most importantly, will help you transform your world.
A simple practice to begin this work....
Lay down in a comfortable place.
Observe your body in space and in time.
Observe your thoughts.
Feel any sensations.
Notice any emotions that surface around your thoughts and sensations.
Feel your breath, how it moves, the quality of the breath.
Does it feel short, long, tight, or coarse?
Refine any tension in your breathing.
Relax into the ease of your natural breath.
As thoughts, sensations and emotions surface, gently return to your easy breath.
Observe that part of you who observes or witnesses you breathing.
Stay a minimum of 5 minutes.
Repeat the first steps of observation on body, thoughts, sensations, and emotions.
Has anything changed?